One night at a Animation studio...

OK, Now this might not become a best seller like certain IIM IIT whatever people we all know, but this little adventure of mine is of my first night at my own animation studio/class where i decided to book the computer for a night after months of pestering from a certain classmate .
why book a computer? ... to practise the shit we learn every day in class.. but instead of sitting at home and getting distracted by phone calls, ammas, food, tv, porn, rain, itchy balls, thirst, a fly on the monitor, girlfriend, YM buzzes, food, porn, itchy balls..... you get the idea...

I wasnt totally in the mood for it the day before, because the idea of having to sit inside a "lab" ( as our rooms with computers are called) for about 8 hours all night is NOT something I was wholly prepared to do. so, with a sigh and and shrug and a false determination that YES!! AAJ TOH YEH KARKE HI REHNA HAI"... off i went to the zombie shift training. :P

now, just in case more regular readers are expecting a crib fest like in the old days.... :P NAAATTT!!! :P:P

maja came honestly. I was in a lab with another 5 guys, ALL of whom seemed to be north Indians. One of them was my dilli ka dost oye.. half of what he says is completely lost on me.. but i assume hes cracking some joke all the time so i smile and nod my head or shake my head depending on his expression and hope i got it right.
for some reason, one Banarasi fellow and another Dilli fellow kept calling each .. SIRRRR SIIRRRRR for no reason!!.. every sentence started with a .. OJI sirrrrr me kya keh reya uunn."..
hmm... these north Indians are wierd i say.... :P
But honestly.. it felt better than sitting between a bunch of marathis. atleast it was still hindi :P

and they were quite helpful too..:P cleared up some issues and suggested interesting different ways to improve my efficiency.
and I , in turn, helped out imparting my world famous in Borivali GYAAN!! on how to KICK properly so that the banarasi fellow could aminate a fighter hot chick.. ( nice boobs on that character yaa.. drrool )

8 hours well spent... goody goody..
but it made me realise something which I've been worrying about for a while now.

I dont know where im going. A year ago I was pretty gung ho about all this animation business. but I'm starting to doubt myself. whether im really truly prepared to make it.
In the engineering days, anything other than engg seemed to be great, and a career in animation seemed utterly lovely :) hallowed ground even.. but im here now, i can see how things go.. im still learning and in a couple of months time I have to start hunting for a job.
but i dont know anymore...
I dont work nearly half as hard as the fellows i say today. ( and THEY SAY!!.. that there are others there whos work will blow me away ...:-s )
ahem... no one has said anything like that about my work.. hell i dont have anything to show yet.
I passed engg ... woo hoo.. im learning animation ... woo hoo.. but everyday im saying to myself.. buck up you fat lazy piece of shit. what da hell are you procrastinating?
but I think my self motivational prowress is at a bit of a slump at this moment.

i got 2 months to make something out of all this...
i got plans.. i got loads and loads of plans.. but i have no idea if i can pull em off..
im a little scared... not shit in pants kinds yet, but something like PRE- nailbiting scared.

I dont have a choice anymore... i cant mess this up.
what other options do i have....
engineering site job... k pass
call centre....................k pass
coolie............................hmm....
call boy/giggolo...........gotta lose 20 kgs
suicide..........................k thanx.
boob farmer................looks promising but unpredictable market.

so.....
not much there...
oh well.... letsee..