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Sunday, October 21, 2007
right! so where were we...?
Spent just a little too long procrastinating this bit!
Damn! sometimes I hold so true my my descriptions its scares me. :p
FRIDAY, 30th MAY 2003!
On that wholly unremarkable day I put up my first ever blog post on shadowfax. :) Looking the difficulty im having in getting this post up im surprised I managed 3 whole years of blogging and making some amazing friends in the process and learning a lot more about myself. sigh!
Sala, if i could atleast get half the josh i had in those days into this damn blog I'd be happy.
Ive been staring at other peoples stuff for weeks now, wondering how id be like to start over again. but everytime I keep getting stuck at what to say. somehow back then it never was a problem. I think I've slowly ended up becoming what i always dreaded :p. One of the GREY PEOPLE!!!!!
brrrr..
*&%&^$^*%...
okiee, for those who never have heard my great theory of the grey people here it goes ...
Its the everyday person. The one sitting next to you in the train. staring listlessly at nothing in particular, not really looking forward to anything in life except making some money to provide for his/her family. Living on a steady routine and settled job and a fairly settled life with all the standard complications and worried within and dealing with everyday problems and not seeing anything beyond that life.
Back in my college days, I look at those eyes in the trains all around me and say to myself.. fuck this! I dont wanna end up like them. The grey people.
I wanted to be different.
Lately, I cant help but feel that all my grand plans have gone to utter waste. I wake up, go to work, come back and sleep. Sure Sangeeta is one lil bright spark in my life but apart from her, im as antisocial as a man can get. NO friends around, the ones i was so close to have all left town and are now pursuing their own dreams. good for them and im very happy for them. but yaar its so fucking boring here now!!!
Im considering getting rid of my cell phone. Dont ask why, I have no idea. But, I dont want it anymore. It feels more like a liability than an accessory. more on that later.
And the city isnt helping! I dont travel by trains anymore and somehow that feeling that im disconnected with the world around me has deepened inside me. and that disconnections is heightened by the crowds. its all so different. Right in front of my eyes, Bombay has changed!!
I dont know how many people would agree with me on this but i cant but feel that this city has changed and its changing for the worse.
For the first time ever, I'm starting to think i dont want to be here anymore!
The only reason Bombay holds on to me is because this is where my career is! for now...
hmm..
Im not really in such a gloomy mood today, but yes i have my worries and they are out for all to see. not that i ever try to hide them but there is a comfort in being able to type it all out on a webpage. where it shall lay for eternity as much as blogger.com's servers will allow it :P
and now I find why I loved blogging so much in the old days!
my own little puke page to throw all my cribs and whines into.
sigh :)
I missed this..
cheers and all that bhosada!!11
:D
Damn! sometimes I hold so true my my descriptions its scares me. :p
FRIDAY, 30th MAY 2003!
On that wholly unremarkable day I put up my first ever blog post on shadowfax. :) Looking the difficulty im having in getting this post up im surprised I managed 3 whole years of blogging and making some amazing friends in the process and learning a lot more about myself. sigh!
Sala, if i could atleast get half the josh i had in those days into this damn blog I'd be happy.
Ive been staring at other peoples stuff for weeks now, wondering how id be like to start over again. but everytime I keep getting stuck at what to say. somehow back then it never was a problem. I think I've slowly ended up becoming what i always dreaded :p. One of the GREY PEOPLE!!!!!
brrrr..
*&%&^$^*%...
okiee, for those who never have heard my great theory of the grey people here it goes ...
Its the everyday person. The one sitting next to you in the train. staring listlessly at nothing in particular, not really looking forward to anything in life except making some money to provide for his/her family. Living on a steady routine and settled job and a fairly settled life with all the standard complications and worried within and dealing with everyday problems and not seeing anything beyond that life.
Back in my college days, I look at those eyes in the trains all around me and say to myself.. fuck this! I dont wanna end up like them. The grey people.
I wanted to be different.
Lately, I cant help but feel that all my grand plans have gone to utter waste. I wake up, go to work, come back and sleep. Sure Sangeeta is one lil bright spark in my life but apart from her, im as antisocial as a man can get. NO friends around, the ones i was so close to have all left town and are now pursuing their own dreams. good for them and im very happy for them. but yaar its so fucking boring here now!!!
Im considering getting rid of my cell phone. Dont ask why, I have no idea. But, I dont want it anymore. It feels more like a liability than an accessory. more on that later.
And the city isnt helping! I dont travel by trains anymore and somehow that feeling that im disconnected with the world around me has deepened inside me. and that disconnections is heightened by the crowds. its all so different. Right in front of my eyes, Bombay has changed!!
I dont know how many people would agree with me on this but i cant but feel that this city has changed and its changing for the worse.
For the first time ever, I'm starting to think i dont want to be here anymore!
The only reason Bombay holds on to me is because this is where my career is! for now...
hmm..
Im not really in such a gloomy mood today, but yes i have my worries and they are out for all to see. not that i ever try to hide them but there is a comfort in being able to type it all out on a webpage. where it shall lay for eternity as much as blogger.com's servers will allow it :P
and now I find why I loved blogging so much in the old days!
my own little puke page to throw all my cribs and whines into.
sigh :)
I missed this..
cheers and all that bhosada!!11
:D
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